journey: sparkling sea

today could've been a bad day. last night's sleep wasn't restful due to a shower michael took in the middle of the night before he went to sleep, a bed made wet by the little boy who sleeps beside me, and a low level headache pulsating on my skull all night long making its way into a migraine. but, this morning when michael woke up, ezra followed him and allowed me to sleep in until 8:00. when i got out to the living room ezra had already taken out the play-dough by himself and was happily keeping himself busy.

while he rolled out the play-dough and cut out suns, stars, and moons, i made pancakes. usually i don't indulge in these myself, but today i did. and because they aren't made with any sugar i thought it would be okay to spread some nutella on them and roll them up. this and two cups of my favorite tea definitely started to make the day feel manageable (along with the ibuprofen i downed with my water). ez and i retreated back to the bedroom afterward, per his request, onto the bed where he played with a knit bird that i made, did some bead lacing, and played with his stuffed dogs, sunny and lola, while i knit some more, checked out some of my favorite blogs, folded laundry and had a long stretched out morning. when i walked out to water the plants on the balcony the sun was sparkling on the sea like glitter.

these moments of sheer beauty on this island always have me stopping and thanking my lucky stars. yesterday morning i took a quick dip into our ocean (our beach is finally back) before michael went into his office for a full day and night of study. he literally goes into his office, shuts the door and we don't see him until he comes out to eat. i miss him so much and sometimes i get upset and vent my frustrations to him. afterward i always feel guilty because he has to study all day and i have to play all day (and clean and cook and clean and cook). but, most of the time i am so grateful that he has brought us here to this paradise to follow his dream, even if it means we can't always share it with him and that i sometimes feel like all i do is clean and cook and clean and cook. he is working so hard for our family and for that i am grateful. all i have to do is take a look or a swim at that sparkling sea and my mind is transformed.

some of the other things that have made me smile lately and feel grateful are:

ezra's new spiderman costume that has him spinning webs

and excited to celebrate halloween in costume,