shadows

looking back through my monthly albums i can find pictures from each month of our shadows that i've taken. i think i may be slightly obsessed with shadows.

i love our shadows. i always loved seeing my own shadow when i was a kid and now i love to see our shadows together. shadows are playful and fun to look at. we often find ourselves having fun with our shadows outside. ezra also likes to use flashlights in our bedroom when it's dark so that he can make shadows with his hands.

this particular series of shots was taken 4 months ago during michael's last break between semesters. ezra saw his shadow at orient beach where we had rented beach chairs at one of the beach bars that have music playing through their speakers. he started dancing with his shadow. i wish i could still do that without having people look at me like i'm a lunatic.

this is a rare shot of all three of our shadows. we're at ezra's castle on st. martin.

when i see myself as a silhouette, i am happy at what i see. i think it is easier to look at a representation of myself than a picture of myself straight on where i automatically start noticing lines, squints, spots, and imperfections. i also notice how i will overanalyze the seeming expression on my face and think, that's not what i was feeling... these shadows of mine are my favorite pictures of myself because they show me in a place in time which is usually all i am trying to convey in a picture of myself. it has become more and more uncomfortable for me to smile for the camera unless i am truly happy in that moment. i do not like the contrived look of a smile just put on for show. or maybe i'm just not very good at it anymore. i should've worn my retainer after braces.